BF is making fasts difficult

I had a 100 calorie bag of chips yesterday for lunch. I got home and a couple hours later J asks me if I can have a burger. I say yes. I eat it fast with just the patty and bun. Later he tells me I need to eat something else, that I didn't eat enough yet. For a while I couldn't decide on a safe food item to eat. J asked me if he made eggs, would I be willing to eat it? I said ok. I had an egg on one piece of bread and a slice of cheese on top. Also a 120 calorie bag of chips to go with. I really wasn't hungry. I really didn't want any of that. All I wanted to have was that 100 calorie bag of chips and that 120 calorie bag of chips for later. I'm going to lie to him today. I have to. I'll tell him I had a 280 calorie candy bar. Which I do really have, I got it from one of my teachers. Instead I'm going to throw away the candy part and keep the wrapper for proof. Also I'm going to tell him I had a 150 calorie cereal bar. So that's 430 calories. He works tonight at the pub and grill so I'll tell him I had like a bowl of cereal or something for when he gets back. He always gets a free dinner there so I'll just plan on having a salad. Which I will allow myself to have some of the salad. It's always good to eat a little something to avoid any binging. It's lunch time here at school, I'm not eating. I'm ready to get home and smoke a bowl and have a cigarette. When J leaves for work I will work out. Probably run and do some situps. If the sun is still out I'll lay out and get some color. Sounds like a lovely pro ana afternoon. I'm feeling a little sick cause of my stomach being so empty. Gosh! I'm so ready to get out of here. I could be working out right now. I think I'm going to lay outside for lunch and get some sun. Peace.